Un-fiction

Confessions:

I miss you the most now. It's excruciating, to feel this emptiness where you used to be. We are cosmos apart. I remember the night you came to my house, around midnight, because I had told you I was hungry and had forgotten to buy more groceries. You casually mentioned you had made too much and figured midnight meals were always the most fun.

Every day after we had met, we talked forever on the phone. I can't even remember half the things we talked about. All I remember is you talking about your pain.

You loved her still.

I had no words to comfort you. I simply listened, hoping it was enough. And it was.

And you were enough for me at that moment as well. My life was changing rapidly, overhauling before my eyes, I was shaky, but you held me up. Long enough to keep me sane. Before I left.

I had never known you long enough to love you. I'm sure that was mutual. But we could never deny the chemistry we shared.

I remember the night you had come over with drinks. A terrible tropical storm had just passed and the electricity was down. We sat on my front porch, feeling the breezy but humid night air, clutching our cold bottles of beer.

We sat in a comfortable silence. Every now and then you'd say something you were thinking about. We would talk about it until the topic lapsed. I remember turning to you, and squinting through the dim light of the tiny candle that sat in between us, and watching the shadows dance on your face.

Eventually, we bid each other adieu. I had more packing to do.

We stood up and stared at each other. You were close enough that I could feel your warm breath on my forehead. You smiled. I returned it. Then you stepped closer and embraced me. I wrapped my arms around you, trying to steady my already shaky legs. You pulled back, kissed my forehead, then left on your black motorbike.

I left the next day. You barely missed me leaving. I remember you running just as I was getting into the car. My sunken heart rose in excitement. I ran towards you and threw my arms around you.

It was an overwhelming feeling of absolute ecstasy and utter anguish. My heart leaped and ached all at the same time.