Dear Friend,

Bah. I had a dream last night that's been bothering me all day. It was about someone who used to be really close to me.

I can't remember the dream too well. It only comes in hazy bits and pieces.

I remember missing you terribly. I felt this overwhelming need to talk to you. So I ended up in front of your house. I had your stuff with me in a box. I was using it as an excuse to talk to you. I remember vividly standing awkwardly in front of your house, inwardly debating whether I should just leave. I ended up walking up to your door anyway and knocking vehemently, determined to get through with it. However, as you opened the door to greet me, the will to do whatever it was I wanted to do, left me.

You stared at me coldly, trying to hide your confusion and surprise. I don't remember the words that we exchanged. Only that I apologized profusely. After listening to me, you stepped forward and threw your arms around me. I stood stiffly feeling stunned at the warm greeting.

You took your things inside, and next thing I knew, we were hanging out again. Everything was the same as before -- before all the arguing began. When things were simple. But at the same time, everything was different as well. I really can't put into words the difference. I just felt older, and I remember we were parked up in the hills, lying on the hood of your car, watching the sunset, and seeing the whole world so differently. I felt and saw the naivety of my childhood. And I told you about it. You sat quietly but I knew you were listening. I knew you agreed with my words, and you didn't even have to say anything. And that was exactly what I needed.

I remember greeting you by running up to you and hugging you in different scenes. And we were us again. But not, at the same time.

Anyway, I woke up and felt really strange. I hadn't ever dreamt about you in years. I don't even remember thinking about you the day before, or the days before that. It just felt bizarre to suddenly dream about you.

But it also felt nice to feel like I had my best friend back. And throughout the day, the deep pang of sadness echoed within me.

I miss you. I can only wish that you're happy, even though you're not beside me anymore.

Ugh. No more emotions, please. Back to studying databases.